His eyes flicker open, the morning sunshine creeping through the half
closed blinds create peculiar shadows upon his face. I meet his gaze as
it morphs quickly from confused, disorientation into intensity &
notice the flecks of gold scattered across his iris. I feel myself
tremble as he edges across the sheets, pulling me close and whispers
softly ‘Good morning.’
The butterflies begin tumbling when he’s
near. Their somersaults becoming faster, higher and increasing in
intensity whenever he lays his eyes upon me or parts his lips to impress
upon me the phrases I’ve longed to hear for what feels like forever.
Yet even though the experience is immersed in excitement &
nervousness, like all the others before; there comes a natural honesty
& comfort that creates a familiarity like never before.
Valentines
day we spent together enjoying each other’s company. He asks “so what
have you been listening to lately?’ And I, dreading his reaction,
knowing full well he’s a musician and that music is his passion, pause
before replying timidly “I’ve pretty much had Lisa Mitchell- Wonder on
repeat. I love the poetry of her lyrics and she’s got such a pure
voice.” As he responds with “Yeah I know, she’s amazing!” I feel chills
down my spine in excitement- this was not what I expected at all!
Everyday
now, I try to live in the present and enjoy his company, and everyday
I’m taken by surprise as he continues to expose his soul to me. I dread
the idea that maybe this will all end one day- that I will wake up to
hear him say those awful words “I’m sorry, but something’s changed.” Or
even worse, that I will wake to realise during this time in my life I
completely vacated reality and hallucinated a man that awoke so many
things in my heart, a man who never really existed.
Either way
though, he has helped me become excited about what the future holds. I
dream of sharing the experiences of travel with him, envisioning us
holding hands exploring the world together, laughing at the adventures
that lay within each step. I long for a time where I’ll be able to wake
from slumber and just gaze into his eyes. You see, everybody warned me
to just take things slow and be careful; But although it’s scary and
puts you in a vulnerable position- what’s the point in getting to know
somebody and letting them into your life, if you’re only willing to show
parts of who you are to them? To truly love somebody you need to take
the walls down, expose your soul completely to them and hand over your
heart.
So I have entrusted my heart completely into his care. And
for the moment, yes it’s scary and daunting, but it’s also exhilarating
and exciting. The potential for loss, pain and hurt is equal to that of
happiness. However, for the moment I’m just eagerly anticipating his
next phone call.
- THE END -
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