Only The Lonely

Rain lashed against the window pane. ‘Another miserable day,’ the old man thought as he turned from the window and walked back into his room. He sat down on his favourite chair and drew it close to the fire. The heat from it made him drowsy and he was soon fast asleep.

Sleep came easily to old Jim these days, now in his 92nd year he found his dreams better than reality. Each dream he had always centred upon Eleanor Elphinstone, a still sprightly woman who had also recently celebrated her 92nd birthday. Jim and Eleanor had gone to the same school, in fact they had been in the same class at primary.

All his days Jim had coveted Eleanor but he had never been able to work up the courage to ask her for a date. In his dreams, however, it was oh so different. They were young again and they were a pair. He visualised them running through fields hand in hand laughing, they were deeply in love. In his dreams they talked, went to the movies, dined out, danced, had days away together. All was bliss in this perfect dream world, then he would waken.

In the real world Jim was a loner. He had never really made friends nor for that matter had he made enemies, he was just painfully shy. He had been an only child and a lonely one too. His parents had died when he was just eighteen and he had no living relatives. At school he would only speak when spoken to and when he started working it was as a night-watchman in a warehouse where his only contact with humanity was when he signed on or off of his shift.

His shyness made shopping an ordeal for him, he made his purchases quickly and rushed home as fast as he could. Every night of his long, lonely existence he thought of Eleanor. She had always smiled and shown a kindness to him whenever their paths crossed. No one else ever did. Sometimes Jim would cry in his solitude. He often asked himself why he was so withdrawn. What frightened him so? He thought of how different things could have been if only he had the courage. Eleanor had been a bright and bubbly child who as she matured oozed charm and made friends easily.

The wind battering the rain against his window roused Jim from his slumbers. The fire had gone out. He shivered and looked at the clock above the mantelpiece. It read 11.40, time for bed. As he changed into his night attire he made a vow that tomorrow he would speak to Eleanor and do what he should have done years ago, and ask her out. He spent a restless night tossing and turning thinking of the momentous day that lay before him.

In the morning he rose, shaved and put on his best suit and put aside his walking stick, he wanted to look younger today. He set out at eleven and walked to where Eleanor lived. There he waited… and waited … and waited. For four hours he waited until his courage started to fail him and he decided to return home.

That night when his evening paper had been delivered he settled down in his favourite chair by the fire to peruse its pages. He flicked through them until an article caught his attention. 'Yesterday at 1.30 pm while shopping in High Street a 92 year old pensioner, Miss Eleanor Elphinstone was fatally injured by a hit and run driver …'

Jim’s eyes filled with tears and he sobbed loud and long, eventually he rose from his chair and ventured through to the kitchen to find some matches to light his cigarette. He inhaled deeply in an attempt to sooth his pain then walked back through to his chair by the fire. Soon, in spite of his trauma, the heat put him to sleep and as usual he dreamed of Eleanor and the chance he had just missed and, as he slumbered, the cigarette slipped from his fingers and fell to the carpet.

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