Love In Vain

In everyone's life there are some people who have a great impact in their life...in my life there is one such person whose one look or even a faint smile brings a fifty mm smile on my face.He is the one who always reminds me of love.Even when i think of him there is a little pain inside but still i would like to cherish those cute memories in my heart...even though i know in reality he does not know that i exist but still i choose to keep him in my heart because love is not always about having the person love you back.Everything started when i was in my teens he was a year older than me and we at that time went to the same church...it was not love at first sight because neither did i feel anything special nor did i hear any filmy songs playing as the backgronud score like in movies when i first set my eyes on him.Slowly i started noticing him...his interest to come to church and to sit for sunday school really amazed me because i never liked the idea of going to church at that time. He is goodlooking and i found him very cute.My stupid mind at that time thought he too was interested in me but now i realise how foolish i was to have such thinking.... how can a handsome goodlooking and popular guy like him think or even bother to look at me.I am a fatso and from the time i remember i have always been plum and dreaded going to the dress shops to buy a dress because i coludn find anything that could fit me in.Almost two to three years passed.... my love or attraction for him grew.We used to meet by chance at the library,bus stops or in the most unexpected places.But everything did not go so happily... i started going to another church and i finally stopped seeing him.At that time I thought maybe i will not meet him again.But that was not it we again met a couple of times but all the while it was just me seeing him...he as usual either didnt see me or didnt recognize me.Time flew by i started my college and went to another state for studies.It was a course for four years during the first three years of my studies i hardly saw him but i,like a ritual would always update myself about the news about him by constantly visiting his profiles in social networking sites.Alas!i am so pathetic.It was the final year of my course and like a twist in te tale he joined my college for his post graduation studies i was thrilled thought God was giving me a second chance in love.But i must say the higher the hopes even deeper will our remorse and depression become.In college i just saw him only about ten times now its my last days in college i will be leaving in a couple of weeks i dont know where my life is going to take me i dont think he will ever know what i feel about him.

It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return.But what hurts the most is to love someone and never have the courage to let the person how you feel.Of all pains,the greatest pain is to love,and to love in vain.

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